Monday, May 21, 2012

A draft I never posted

   There are days when I wonder if I'm cut out to be a stay-at-home-mom, those are usually the days when Braxton is a heathen child sent here to open the doors of hell. *lol* Ok, maybe he's not that bad, but there are days he is just.... defiant. Pig-headed. Stubborn. Just an all around asshole.
    Yes, I just called my toddler and asshole, sue me, he can be.
   Brax is learning he's not part of me or Richard, that he's his own person - woohoo! - but, that also means he's going to push our buttons and test the limits as much as he can.
   One day he got mad because I wouldn't let him keep playing with the light switch, and was going to put him down so I could go clean the kitchen, so he inturn bit through my shirt onto my upper arm and drew blood. Again, through my shirt people! Needless to say I wasn't a happy camper for a while.
    So there are days when I just keep checking the clock to see how much longer til Rich gets home and I can have a few minutes to myself - which usually  means I'm either going to the bathroom to read (come on, you know you do it too) or cleaning something - but atleast for a few minutes I'm alone doing it.
    As a SAHM you need those alone times or you'll go crazy, trust me, I know. After Brax was first born I tried to do everything myself and not ask for help - which inturn meant that I needed Rich to just know what I needed help with, which lead to some n asty fights because neither of us was communicating. That's  bad.
   After a while I finally confessed I was going crazy, and I needed to have some alone time since I valued my sanity, so we made it work. At first it was taking a shower without b eing interrupted, then it became half an hour after he came home from work (even if ithat meant I was cooking or something), then it was going to lunch with a friend, and somestimes it's me going to a garge sale without either of them and I'm gone a few hours. So, new moms, take the time away, the baby will be fine. :)

1 comment:

  1. You know I dont have any kids yet but you can bet your sweet patootie that I still need my time away from the hubs. It's great that Rich understands what you go through & that you need "you" time.

    Enjoy every minute of it! Also, love that you called Brax a little asshole lol.


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